SPM

I know the date shouldn't be on above, cause SPM is already OVER. I mean OVER a long time ago. But I wanna take down how I actually can survive through these torturing days...

BEFORE SPM
There was once I was studying sejarah late at night, and I got so frustrated about it as everything I studied couldn't go into my head. I didn't know how to do the subjective and the essay questions in the workbook. I didn't know what happened to myself at that time, maybe too stress, my head got dizzy and painful, suddenly felt really down, really upset, felt like ending everything. And that was only one way, killing myself. That was what in my head. It would be so good if I can escape everything. Can I kill myself. I wanna cry, but no tears were coming out. My, that was the most and the only suffering moment which I'd ever been through.
At last, I forced myself to calm down, and I put a lot of effort on that. Then, I start writing out the sejarah notes, writing hardly on the papers. Soon after that, I felt a lot better.
A few days before SPM, I found a guy, named Andrew Pua's blog. He wrote a lot of good and meaningful things. And I found one of his sentences:
"其实失败是上帝赐给我们的礼物，上帝要透过这方式让我们更加对上帝有信心，同时上帝要我们从挫折中不断的磨练，学习。"
which means failure is a gift from God, through this method, we can be more confident to God, and He wants us to learn from our mistakes and practise more. After I had seen this sentences, I told myself not to be so greedy. Since there was no much time left, I will just have to try my very best. I won't ask for straight A's, I will just try my best. Its okay if I get terrible results, I can at least know where is my best level, and work harder for better level.

DURING SPM
I was really scared on the first day, after that I felt more relax and felt like doing normal exam in the school. And it was not good, I know. After days by days, papers by papers, I actually started to feel so sick of SPM. I was counting down to the end of it. Honestly, that way actually made me feel better and stress-free.

Yay, the first post!

Yay, the first post! Since this is the very first post in my blog, I'm going to write down what happened today in my life =) Yes, I do know that we should introduce ourselves first in our very first post, but nvm.

Wake up at what time today? No. I didn't wake up today, cause I didn't sleep for last night at all! I was studying for the undang test which I was going to take this morning. I started my study at 1.00am last night, and cant believe that I have to take so much time to complete the whole syllabus! Then, when I got ready for everything and planned to go for the test at 7.40am, what gave me a shock was daddy actually left me behind and gone! OHMY, the problem was, WHO IS GOING TO TAKE ME THERE?? How can he do this to me? I felt like crying at that moment, thinking, "he is such a bad person! can't believe that he actually do this to me!"Okay, let's look over the matter, I told him that we should go out at 7.30am in the morning as the test starts at 8.00am. And this morning he was waiting for me, and I was late for just 10minutes! 10 minutes ONLY! He just can't wait for her daughter for the darn 10 minutes!!!!!Feeling disappointed, I decided not to do it today already. Then, mother scolded me for not being punctual, and at last, she herself took me there. Luckily, I can still made it in time, thankgod!I was so nervous about the test, cause I just started studying last night and can't be confident about passing. Surprisingly, without the confidence, I passed the test. Yes, I know, it is very normal to pass the test, but I just can't help to feel relieved and happy, YAY =DHaha, it seems like I have made another small step towards getting the driving license! GOOD~Yea, I remembered what mother scolded me today. She said I am always like that, taking things as lightly and easy. I mean, I always make ppl to wait for me, not being punctual. I understand, and I am trying to work on it already. I have to admit that this is one of my weaknesses. The worst thing about me, I think.

Last time, I did not take this word - puntuality seriously. What was on my mind is, "Oh, I'm sorry that I am late, but I got excuses, please forgive me." I got a lot of scolding from my friends, family and even the teachers. I had been having this thought in me, which is "I'm just late, it doesn't really hurt to wait, right? Well, I don't mind waiting." Terrible, right? After getting so many troubles and scoldings, I finally learnt the lesson, and have been trying to correct this habit of mine. I can't say that I have completely corrected this habit, but I am improving.

Puntuality is very important. It is like a rule which we follow so that our plans are working in the right way, in the right time. Peaple don't mind waiting, but they may feel that they are not respected, cause making ppl to wait is very RUDE. Once you make ppl to wait, they will lose the trust on you once.